I think, I am done with this world! I am done with everyone. Done letting people make me feel bad, crash my confidence, treat me like shit, and all of that. They say in hindsight everyone is wiser, but me, ohh silly me, just defy all this.
This is all because of me, because I gave you right to make me feel and treat like shit. Make me feel like committing suicide. Cut my veins or consume cup full of pills or jump in Yamuna, and die a dog’s death.
But the thought is over, and I am still alive, writing this. Sorry I have failed you, because I did not cry myself horse, so what if I was teary eyes- you could not have seen me from 1500 miles away.
I am instead going to go someplace calm, nice place and just think, if all this is worth it?
Darling- I am going to change, but not for you this time …for ME!
